Pinch me.

I can't believe it myself, but.....

Yep, we're having another boy, and yes, I am shocked.  Of course I knew there was a 50/50 chance of this baby being a boy, but honestly, I really thought we'd be having a girl.  Turns out, NOTHING ever turns out the way I assume it will.  I am still trying to wrap my head around the fact that we are having a HE and not a SHE, and truth be told, while I haven't actually cried yet, there have been numerous times this evening when I have been on the edge of tears.  I don't know the right word to explain how I am feeling other than shocked, only because family pattern- on both sides of the family- was boy/girl.  So while I tried really hard not to assume that this was a girl, that is where my thoughts naturally ventured.  I have ONLY been looking at girl clothes.  I have ONLY been getting ideas for girl nurseries.  I have ONLY girl names picked out.  I have ONLY been imagining holding a little girl in August.  So yeah, to hear the doctor say, "I think it's a boy," threw me for a loop.  I really thought this was it.  I thought, "OK, we're going to have a girl and we're going to be done."  Apparently not.  Well, I can't say that for sure, but I do know that I am a girl who wants a girl.  Then again, what if we get another boy!  See, now I am already stressing about #3 being a boy!  Ahhhh!  OK, breathe Heather.  

In the end I know I'll love this little baby boy just as much as my first.  I know he'll wrap me around his finger the first time I lay eyes on him.  I know this little boy is another amazing blessing from God and He knows best, so in the end, I'll take what He gives me and be happy.